ta-ra~ sweet 18th...hulloo 19th!

In 1 and a half hours tym, i'm gonner enter the 19th year of my life. I thank the Almighty for letting me live on the face of this Earth for 19 quite interesting years...hmm...come to think of it, 19 iz the last year i'll ever have a teen age..if i ever wanna be a teen ager again, i gotta wait until i'm a hundred and thirteen!

altho i spent half of my 18th year in bitterness and hatred but i'm grateful for the other half, which i enjoyed totally! That when i entered the world of uni life. So close to home, great friends and a new opportunity for me to turn over a new leaf. the finals are in 3 week time and i really gotta focus during this study week.

There are some things i missed out on during my 18th. Like buying fags [not to use, juz buy coz i can..] and i'm still pretty much happily single. Mebbe i shud try to look forward to a relationship in my 19th year...hmm...feb 14th? But there are more important things to look forward to other than that...Like going on a vacation wif my frenz [without my parents], get to know jB better, be a better muslim, actually DRIVE further than the distance i can go to these days, master the art of guitarin, play proper golf, and totally excel in my studies. All not impossible..!

I cant wait fort he next semester...Aargh!

FEBRUARY 2006

it's the fasting month already and my life's 18th chapter iz coming to an end; thus unfolding chapter 19. so scary...itz nice to be 18...18 iz a great age to gloat about. when u say u're 19, it'z like you're suppose to act 19..! and you're a year away from 20, the age that marks the end of your teenage days...no more -teens but -ty's. and u're stuck with it till u're 99..

Speaking of 19, itz d right age for me to get out into the world and search for the one. [or at least i think so] never really gave it a serious...but one day when i went back to college,my frenz told me abt a pact they made while i was away. find a guy by 14.2.06...stoopid pact. but it'll be a good excuse fer me to start searchin tho...i dont really have a candidate,but i love suprises! [hot suprises for that matter...]

afta years of enjoying the luxurious cake at sec recipe usually served by this 'waitress' i noe, i have finally found out 'her' name...hilarious. i ges the dOOd deserves sum credit for being brave enuff to be himself. even us girls have a hell of a time trying to be ourselves when in a society who can't handle us [esp in utm] society sucks! it gets crappy when a certain bunch of guys in my class;who i've never talked to b4, let alone care about their existence, decided to make my life hell juz bcoz i'm me. mofos... things r kinda getting outta hand and i'm losing my patience fast...only time can tell how much longer i can stand their shit.

goodbye looong afternoons and evenings at starbux..! Had fun hangin out for the last tym b4 fasting...i shall return when the month ends...or whenever i decide to break fast at jusco...i'm soo gonner miss the mocha making hottie. sigh~ if only guys like him exists in utm. i'd spend d rest of my 4 years there in pure bliss...then again,reality bites. so, i'll juz spend all my monay at satrbux while enjoyin my drink and d view.

bad hair day

i made a bold decision to go to the hairdressers' today and get trimming. when i got there, she was busy wif a customer so i decided to grab a cleo and read it while i waited. who knew the december 2004 issue was interestin?

when my turn came, i took the cleo wif me. but i CLEARLY stated dat i dont want her to cut my hair short. I just want her to trim the ends of my hair. just to make it neat. she looked like she totally understood esp after i told her dat i spent 3 months letting it grow. i let her do her job while i proceeded to read d cleo. A few articles later she was done. my hair's neat alrite...but itz SHORT!! itz d kind of haircut i wouldve had years ago in my tomboy football playing dayz..! I'm soo fucked up. i was speechless. I wanted to scream but i couldnt. i hated it..!

Sure hair will grow in time...but not soon enough to replace my painstaking 3 months' effort. i do hope it'll grow into a decent length by raya. If not, then i'll prolly cry again...

Emptiess Filling My Room

I got back to my room yesterday [or diz morning ] afta class arnd 4 only to find out dat I absolutely have no idea what to do evn tho I’m well aware that the finals are comin up in a month and the 2nd tests are comin up in a bit more than a week and I CANT AFFORD TO SCREW UP! I gotta get at least 3.5 for this semester to make the people who have high hopes for me proud. I keep telling meself that I can do anything. And I know I can…but at the rate I’m studying ryt now, anything seems but a distance away…so I really gotta get my ass movin or I’m toast. I’ll prolly quit uni and get married to some rich and lonely fogie if I screw up diz tym...

One thing I did d nyt b4 yesterday, which could’ve been STUDYIN, was hangin out in town to see my akustika seniors perform. Considerin I missed their last performance in college, I tot I shud really take a time out to see d guyz in action. They DID take sum of their time out to enlighten me wif guitarin skillz…it’z the courteous thing to do.

The blokes were totally wicked! As far as I can see, some bands perform to show orf and make themselves look like lame-ass eejits on stage…but these bunch of crazy guyz simply enjoy wat their doin and dey be goreng-ing with passion. It juz makes me wanna work harder and be as good as the dudes and so one day I can be up on stage jumpin around and screamin to my fave tunes..! a dream which I hope will become reality one day…

I cant wait for the day when I can finally have a jamming session wif eena and mebbe Corinne too if she’s in d country [instead of bein the singer who cant sing]…I really wanna play OUR SONG ‘I want u to want me’ by Letters to Cleo. I just cant wait! Despite the busy life that’s definitely comin up soon, diz is sumthing I cant leave behind. Itz the remedy to my stressed out self/life/day.

Back to the point where I had nothing to do yesterday…well I found sumthing to do. Yerp…I found an activity berfaedah. I attempted to goth myself up with pale makeup and eyeliner and dark lipstick. Walk the corridors of my floor askin me neighbours if I wud get past a black metal concert. And I took lots of pics of myself. WTF…total waste of 2 hours of my life. Sumtimes I fail to understand my own actions. I even planned to do d same look another fine day and stand on the dark lonely bridge at my college and stare at the passer bys to scare em…hahaha! Fudge…Had fun scarin my roomie abt suckin blood tho…FAT blood frm a certain sum1 we know. We predict that diz person’s blood wud give any vampire high cholesterol level. lol~!

ted-orient-dis

so...i finally decided to register my laptop at the library and to my horror i found out dat the librarian's gonner stick this massive uber fugly sticker on my laptop. Itz ugly and i wanna stick it on my laptop's ass but the librarian wont let me. If i attempt to pull the sticker orf i'll for sure screw up the sticker and i might eventually have to stick it back on the top and then it'll look fuglier! Aaah!!

ahaha! I discovered that i'm alwayz disoriented on Fridayz riiight after i tripped and almost fell over, for the billionth time; flat on my face. I told yasmin that i'm a bit disoriented and she sed 'u're alwayz disoriented on Fridayz'...I am?? Wow..i didnt notice that at all..! Glad it wasn't a battle of the band deja vu...sumtimes i feel like i just have to accept the fact that high heels are hazardous for frequently disoriented saps such as myself. But they're so stylish...and they make me look tall...life.

speaking of life, mebbe all my trippin over nuthing cud be due to the effects of karma. I have been bitchin a lot lately, esp to poor ol 'X'. I really have no idea what it is that X did to me that made X deserve the bitchin...but the mere sight of him/her juz annoys the fuck outta me. i ges itz juz my nature to bitch. It feels good to torture others...[and i wonder why i trip over nothing...] there's always an innocent soul out there to get it frm me. mebbe one day i'll 'fess and make up. juz not in the nearest tym....

despite being as disoriented as a hippy high on ex [or juz simply me on mocha], i have a strange obsession for kula shaker. goodness knows why...it'z as bad as my addiction to mcr. screw these people fer makin good music!! gotta groove to the psychedelic tunes of the shakers...

::mystical machine gun::

killin Time

I gotz 10 minutes to kill before i head orf for lunch...
D day started off crap today....I woke up late, didnt get any work done as planned, didnt do my english task, d presentatoin was off. (I spent ages preparing that..!) i felt like punchin diploma dude in the face fer no reason...the list goes on.

i might as well slept late yesterday than sleep early hopin to wake up early to finish my werk. thank god my eng lect was nice enuff to let me complete d task and send it in b4 12am tonite. she's sooo nice...and i'm such a suck up! ahaha...i ges my crush on diploma dude only lasted for a week. Afta findin out dat he's my height, i lost my interest.

i have a strange craving for mocha today but i have no one to share the moment with. My starbux buddies r all fastin today and they're tre busy tonite. Mebbe tommorow...i cud kill if i dont get to sip even a little! I have to go home evn tho i dont wanna today, or i'll be stuck in a baju kurung the rest of the day. I also have to submit d stupid english note thingy in. Now i really feel d drastic effects of not havin a car! I miss my waja!!!!

letz juz hope the rest of the day goes well....sob~

Eena decided to name the kitty nami...and i'm iman..!! heheee...
iman punye!

Headin Back to Good Ol' Jay Bee...

Headin south to the place i call home..altho i was born in the city of KL i still feel like jB iz a better place for livin...it pretty much have most of the thing kL has to offer besides good mamakz and fancy restaurants..but i'm happy. there's city square for my frequent shoppin, there 's starbux everywhere for my frequent hangin, there's taman u which has everything u need to survive....what more could i ask for?

The one thing i appreciate abt kL iz d fact dat itz in d middle of d country....thus itz a gr8 place to meet up wif my frenz yg bersepah2 d seluruh negara. Amit'z goin to russia next week and we all must see him b4 he goes. I havent seen eena since we parted afta matrix, and as fer d rest...mimi, hanafi, hud and fauzi...i simply miss em. Tariq was there too but his presence was so brief, it was lyk he wasn't derre. D last tym i saw em was 2 months back. Which iz a loooong tym considering we used to hang out almost evryday in matrix.

Thus begins the non stop goofin, talkin and hangin out. Had a gr8 tym and i cant wait to c them all again. mebbe do sumthing more extreme nex tym...Genting anyone? Mebbe when i get my new set of ptptn. I am soooo broke. I didnt buy much yesterday, and still i had to draw out more money...where d hell did d money go? Food? Then it was a waste. The french burger thingy at Burger King sucked major. i only ate half of it....shud've brought the people to sum mamak place near masjid india....

I've sworn meself orf high heels fer d next 2 weeks....afta a whole day of wearin heels, my feet cudnt bear to support me nemore. Yargh~ i dedicate eamon's Dont Want U Back to Amit...Not bcoz we dont want im back, but itz d song us lotz use to love singin together...harhar! i mozz d good ol dayz...bubye dude! Hope to c u next year..!

hullooo....i'm a chubby chum..! o_O
iman punye!

birthday prez butt...still haven't arrived kL yet...
iman punye!

eena's burfday prez...lookin back at the road it's leavin behind...
iman punye!

On the Road...

Hurrah! I finally have d chance to hit d road to kay ell afta waiting fer so many months...2 months to be exact. We juz reached d Ayer Keroh 500m sign board. Juz a few hours left to finally hit kL soil. Cant wait fer 2moro coz i'll b c-ing my frenz who i haven't seen fer so loooonnng! Aargh..! Can't wait!

Wonder wat d hell i shud wear 2moro...hmmm....Eena's birfday prez iz soooo cute i feel like keepin it for myself..must...GIVE..present...too cute to resist!! Must...RESIST..! I shud shuddup...Ekch....d signboard sez kurangkan laju...ekekekee..Oh look...the rest area...

PUFFINS CAN SWIM!!

Thanx to Animal Planet, i juz discovered that puffin birds can swim..!! A great moment of discovery history fer me!

Shit i'm soo pissed orf. ACAD project pissing me orf...when will the horror end?? Why am i drawing the plans of a blardy building that doesnt exist? Why are therre too many small details like longkangs and brick walls and beams to put into consideration????!! mofo..!! Whhhyyyy am i not studying the fundamentals of law insead..? I shud really ge ver the stupid fact dat i'm not living my dreams and doin engineering instead. So diz'll be the last time i'll ever mention [in text] dat i should've went with my heart. Ekch...cest la vie...

Commercial break's over...baaaaack to ACAD!

i tot diz band woz d best band...they won 3rd tho...
iman punye!

The stage we decorated...it looked like it was katrina strucked b4.
iman punye!

my latest addiction

Har har haaarrr...! I can never get enuff of nick toons...[fairly odd parentz on d tube now] Only one of my addictions next to the tube, chocolate, green tea, music and shopping. Lately, i discovered the wonders of mocha [or starbux to be more specific]. Be it machiato or frappucino. i hate coffee...but mocha's java and CHOCOLATE fused; so i tot wat d hell, and i decided to hv a mocha machiato at my fave starbux...strange effects it had on me dat day which lead me to scaring my roomie...hahaha!! Now i feel like i juz gotta have more or i'll drop dead. shit,i'm hooked.

D the accoustica gang in my college held a battle of the band last weekend. Altho i promised to my parents dat i wont get inolved in any shit, i got myself involved in this shit. It was only for the weekend, and it was good shit. There were glitches herre and therre but i think it was all cool...EXCEPT for the part where i fell ALMOST flat on my face in front of a crowd and ALMOST broke a tooth or my nose or cracked my skull open and get amnesia . I had no idea how i fell, i had no idea dat i fell when i found myself lying on d ground face down. I was like wtf??!! Dog knowz if anyone saw...i uz got up and hid backstage thru what was remaining of the show. i gotta lotta freaky looking bruises on my legs plus a bruised ego...it didnt stop me from wearin my heels to class the next day tho!

The fall was like a bad omen somehow, coz the next band dat went on stage afta i fell sounded absolutely terrible. Not that they were terrible musicians, but their stringz were totally outta tune and they couldnt fix it in time. I felt uber sorry fer the fellas...Mebbe they laffed at me and made stupid jokes when they saw me fall...then they'd deserve what happened to them. [talk abt karma..] but i doubt it...juz wanna feel like a witch who can put evil curses people fer a moment therre...[cackle cackle!]

Damn the person who invented Barney!!! My baby sis juz couldnt resist the purple-ness of the fat-arse dino..baby-bop cant count! So whaaat???!! She's a friggin dino..! Aargh!! Screw it..! I gotta plot painful torture for Baby bop who juz learned how to count to 10.

Saturday Already??!!

Omigod..cant believe itz saturday...already??! i'm kinda frustrated dat i havent done much d whole week..esp on academic terms. what did i do 2 prevent my brain frm turnin into orange cotton candy...? A presentation which i hv to present afta d holz along wif a chapter revision of here and there...sumtimes i feel like livin near d uni is too much of a cup of green tea..i feel like a lazy ass all d tym esp when the tv iz callin me to stare blankly at the pretty colours on d screen.

on the other hand, i did have a lotta fun. [shite..fun is bad...esp when u dont wanna screw up again] God help me...shoppin did release d stress monkey on my back. i bought new shuz..yay! shud really try to be less of a shopaholic coz d ptptpu's runnin out fast. y did those people hv to give me so little to live on?? cant imagine life livin on wat i got if i went to a uni a land far far away...ah, i also got to hang out wif my buddies frm college and release all the shit that's been goin on since we parted and started uni. who knew that a shitload of shit happened in d past 2 months..?

[sigh..] gotta start packin...and let new shit begin!

insomnia

Hullooo...I got nothin to do..itz 3 sumthing am and i cant sleep. So i decided to try bloggin. Bubyee...

wat i shud b doin by now.....zZzZzZz...