ta-ra~ sweet 18th...hulloo 19th!

In 1 and a half hours tym, i'm gonner enter the 19th year of my life. I thank the Almighty for letting me live on the face of this Earth for 19 quite interesting years...hmm...come to think of it, 19 iz the last year i'll ever have a teen age..if i ever wanna be a teen ager again, i gotta wait until i'm a hundred and thirteen!

altho i spent half of my 18th year in bitterness and hatred but i'm grateful for the other half, which i enjoyed totally! That when i entered the world of uni life. So close to home, great friends and a new opportunity for me to turn over a new leaf. the finals are in 3 week time and i really gotta focus during this study week.

There are some things i missed out on during my 18th. Like buying fags [not to use, juz buy coz i can..] and i'm still pretty much happily single. Mebbe i shud try to look forward to a relationship in my 19th year...hmm...feb 14th? But there are more important things to look forward to other than that...Like going on a vacation wif my frenz [without my parents], get to know jB better, be a better muslim, actually DRIVE further than the distance i can go to these days, master the art of guitarin, play proper golf, and totally excel in my studies. All not impossible..!

I cant wait fort he next semester...Aargh!

FEBRUARY 2006

it's the fasting month already and my life's 18th chapter iz coming to an end; thus unfolding chapter 19. so scary...itz nice to be 18...18 iz a great age to gloat about. when u say u're 19, it'z like you're suppose to act 19..! and you're a year away from 20, the age that marks the end of your teenage days...no more -teens but -ty's. and u're stuck with it till u're 99..

Speaking of 19, itz d right age for me to get out into the world and search for the one. [or at least i think so] never really gave it a serious...but one day when i went back to college,my frenz told me abt a pact they made while i was away. find a guy by 14.2.06...stoopid pact. but it'll be a good excuse fer me to start searchin tho...i dont really have a candidate,but i love suprises! [hot suprises for that matter...]

afta years of enjoying the luxurious cake at sec recipe usually served by this 'waitress' i noe, i have finally found out 'her' name...hilarious. i ges the dOOd deserves sum credit for being brave enuff to be himself. even us girls have a hell of a time trying to be ourselves when in a society who can't handle us [esp in utm] society sucks! it gets crappy when a certain bunch of guys in my class;who i've never talked to b4, let alone care about their existence, decided to make my life hell juz bcoz i'm me. mofos... things r kinda getting outta hand and i'm losing my patience fast...only time can tell how much longer i can stand their shit.

goodbye looong afternoons and evenings at starbux..! Had fun hangin out for the last tym b4 fasting...i shall return when the month ends...or whenever i decide to break fast at jusco...i'm soo gonner miss the mocha making hottie. sigh~ if only guys like him exists in utm. i'd spend d rest of my 4 years there in pure bliss...then again,reality bites. so, i'll juz spend all my monay at satrbux while enjoyin my drink and d view.

bad hair day

i made a bold decision to go to the hairdressers' today and get trimming. when i got there, she was busy wif a customer so i decided to grab a cleo and read it while i waited. who knew the december 2004 issue was interestin?

when my turn came, i took the cleo wif me. but i CLEARLY stated dat i dont want her to cut my hair short. I just want her to trim the ends of my hair. just to make it neat. she looked like she totally understood esp after i told her dat i spent 3 months letting it grow. i let her do her job while i proceeded to read d cleo. A few articles later she was done. my hair's neat alrite...but itz SHORT!! itz d kind of haircut i wouldve had years ago in my tomboy football playing dayz..! I'm soo fucked up. i was speechless. I wanted to scream but i couldnt. i hated it..!

Sure hair will grow in time...but not soon enough to replace my painstaking 3 months' effort. i do hope it'll grow into a decent length by raya. If not, then i'll prolly cry again...