i juz got bak frm kL today and 2moro is registration day at my college! damn~! i dont evn have clothes to wear to class...dont hav d tym to fulfill my laundry duties..

I enjoyed all-out tho while i was in kL...hung out with arif,tariq n their mate,alif. it was pretty fun evn tho i was d only gurl..i dint feel dat left out. plus i explored a little while i was there. i went to the pasar seni n was suprised to see all d cool crap they have ovr there~! i rly shud go there once i hav my own home to decorate.

i'm rly pissed orf wit my uni tho. i cant believe we have to pay more fees for d 2nd sem evn tho we already paid 2K in d 1st sem! and itz a lot too! and they're takin away my ptptn money frm my account!!! and ptptn wont give me more than d fees rate so i'd have zero in my account! damn!! and i had planz for dat money... :( so effin pissed...

but on d bright side of havin have less money, i'd have less urge to go shoppin while i'm spose to be completin sum kind of assignment or studyin. i need o focus more in sem 2 newayz if i wanna stay in 2nd upper...

ugh..so sleepy...y did d holidays have 2 end so soon????

vacation

i've finally taken a bold step and coloured my hair. on d box, it sez "crimson promise - soft reddish black". and hey~! my hair is now soft reddish black! not too obvious, but just a nice shade of reddish black hair. luv it. i wanted to do red high lights tho, but my parents are just against me. its wierd being 19 and not able to make MY own decisions abt highlighting MY own hair. but since i'm still livin at home (evn tho i'm in uni already) and my dad is one of the lecturers in my faculty, so i've decided to juz listen to em. [hell, if i was in a uni far far away, id have those highlights done in no time~!] Sigh~ i'm such a good kid...

d holidays are finally coming to an end...nex sem i hav to werk my ass off-er if i wanna maintain my 2nd class upper position. so, i had noodles of fun diz holidae. last week i went to sabah. i was rly lookin forward to c-in em org utans but my parents wanna hang aroun civilisation. so i got stuck in kota kinabalu insted. buuuuut it was an interesting stay i must say. not your everyday city.

i particularly like d market place there. really neat compared to other market places i've been to in malaysia. evn had d chance to c mount kinalbalu..well,almost...since it rained and it got rly foggy. i also visited ums and thought dat it's a really nice university compared to utm despite utm's reputation...PLUS i got to buy tons and tons of seashell necklaces and got a gr8 view of sabah frm d apartment i was staying at.

and i tot dat my vacation wud end there..with one week to spare b4 the nex semester begins...but i'm goin to kL diz wkend!! and i cant wait to meet up wif my frenz therre..aargh! i'm havin sooo much fun! but,the reality that i am an engineering student always hits me on d head to remind me of the sufferin i'll b goin thru once d holidays are over...diz time, no more messin. i can only pray to God to give me strenght to overcome the challenges that lie ahead.

[reminder to self~>i still have no one for Feb06...damn, i'm not evn tryin~~]

the gobloq of fire

i finally got to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire. it was definitely worth the 9 bux i paid. i even met up with diela who look great since the last time i saw her...she's gotta cousin who plays wicked guitar and goes to my uni. she might introduce me to him...i cud use a new guitar guru...haven't been strumming sane-ly for ages...with the examz and all...

apparently, more of my relatives think i'm obnoxious...but that's totally not my fault since d realtives who stayed over at my place were mostly guys. what did they expect? me to be prancing around like i do in front of my brother? he's my brother! of course us cousins have the same blood runnin thru our veins, but they gotta understand dat i'm a 19 year old girl and i dont talk to strange guys in their twenties~!

well, they're gone now..but they will be bak next year coz one of em's marrying sum 1 in jB...and i always go to their place every raya...same old, same old...i'll just keep myself busy online, reading or sleepin...haha!

the wedding planner

one of my cuzzins got engaged today, n my dad did d talkin..malay culture can be wierd...it fascinates me how things cn be really traditional in this modern world. but i'm learning to appreciate traditional things...

anywayz, d gurl looked really nice. she wore green which was a really nice theme for the engagement kenduri. i got to carry one of the gift tray for the girl. my mum keeps aking me how i'd like my engagement and my wedding to be like...mebbe coz tis a season for a lot of my cuzzins n frens getting hitched..and i'm nearing twenty...which is still too young!

hmm...lemme see...purple looks really nice on both guys and girl..green nice,n mebbe a really soft shade of orange.. [^_^] my fave colour! erm..ring..white gold, sapphire..tiffany's! a dinner for my frenz by d pool at pulai springs [like i always see when i go there], a party sumwhere cheaper for the family...haha~! yeah, right...mebbe in a zillion years.. [o_O]

weddings are nice..i'd like to plan one..not for myself, but for people. since studying engineering, i havent touched my sketch book at all. so much for standing up for being an expert at physics and being artistics at d same time...it dissapoints me to see people of science neglecting the beauty of art. i live my life among them and i've only met one or two people like that. i fell that just because we're busy learning maths and physics, doesn't mean that we shudnt have d tym to open up n see the beauty of art...sigh~

that's all folks~~

mami's kid

hmm...i finally got myself outta d house. went to a wedding. vry nice. 2nd wedding in dat house. it was funny seeing lecturer's frm my faculty everywhere since d father of d bride is a very good fren of my dad. who is also a lecturer. on d way home, my mum decided to take a detour n visit singgah slalu for a snack. yay~! we had a suprisingly good conversation today.

anywayz, i'm having a lousy time right now since my whole famly's watching a movie by a certain local director who i loathe. itz not dat i dont support d local market, but this director makes d lousiest movie abt d lousiest things...he just doesnt deserve it. and my parents are watching his movie right now. itz loud, stupid, and dumb. i wish he wud just go bankrupt. dat wud be d end of his stupidity.

still, today was a good day where i havent broken into a single fight with my parents at all, so i shud jus mind my own biznes n be a gud girl...haha! going out on monday...if i stay good, mebbe i'd get sum extra cash 4 being soo good!!

the best of me

My holiday is soo interesting~! i'm having soo much fun...if you can consider fun as waking up at midday, eating brunch, watch tv, read a book, watch sum more tv, go online, chat with sum frenz, check out my uni's forum, check out my frenster account, chat sum more, read sum more books, and maybe sleep sumtimes when i'm too tired of having fun, have trouble sleeping at night, when i do finally sleep, i wake up d next day at midday and ges wat? it's a new day of fun filled excitement.

i hav no idea what to do...going out means i need to fork out cash, which i dont have...but not goin out means my ass is either glued to the chair or sofa, where i'll be starin at either a tv or a computer screen. all this boredom is gib=ving me a headache..literally. i'm not moving around at all like a normal person my age shud be doin. at least a trip to the mall where i can walk around and sweat it out shopping wud do. but nooo...my relatives frm penang had to come around diz weekend and i'm stuck at home for at least the next four dayz coz my parents think its appropriate for me to stay at home with the guests. plus my mum wud need my help now and then while they're around. i wudnt even consider myself being with the guest right now since i'm upstairs typin this when they're downstairs....

i am such a vegetable...i shud find sumthing useful to do with my holidayz...i'm too rested. being too rested is bad...on monday, i'm gonner get myself outta d house, go watch harry potter which i nvr get a chance to coz itz alwayz full n walk around city square n exercise and not eat junk..! there, goal set. then on wedz [hopefully] i wanna go on a hangout session with yasmin. omigod!! i just realised dat i'm going to sabah in a fortnight...yippee!! [no, really..i meant it...]

surti dan tejo

surti dan tejo...an indonesian song by jamrud dat i got from one of my class mate. hilarious evn tho i dont understand half d song...hmm...it's been a while since i've written...prolly bcoz there's nothing to write about. but when i think about it, there's actually so much to write about.

1st of all, i need to let go of an event that i cant seem to 4get. it seems to haunt me everyday in everyway...during raya my mum found out that her uncle has been in icu for 3 weeks. so she insists that we go see him asap. and we did. the sight of my great uncle was terrible...apparently, during the bypass operation, he got a heart attack n most of his organs have failed to function properly. so he was practically living on a machine. i froze, i cudnt talk, i got out of the ward quickly. coz if i didnt, i'd prolly break down n cry...

he was one of my favourite great uncles. i knew him better than i knew d others...one of my relatives whom i'm closest to. as long as i've known him, he was perfectly healthy. 59 is not old. he died a week afta we visited him. it was a sad sight to see...d last funeral i went to was my grandmother's...when i was 9. so this one was scary for me somehow...a few hours later, his elder sister died. it was 2 funerals in 1 day at the same graveyard. the saddest part is, their mother's still alive n she's seen her kids go one by one over the years.

after d funeral, we rushed bak to jB coz i was in the middle of my finals...its wierd how i keep getting dreams abt my great uncle. evn now, almost a month later. not just dreams, but wierd dreams...iz it bcoz i cant handle d fact dat he's gone? i dunno...itz freaking me out...

anywayz, d finalz r finally over and i'm on my 4 week holidae. i'm worried about my results. aren't we all? itz different for me, coz not only my dad will noe my results, but all of his mates. which gets me really nervous. i'm afraid dat i might embarass him...stupid feeling. the boredom i'm going thru diz holidae iz makin d stupid feeling worse. there's nothing to do. next sem i'm gonner keep myself so bored dat i cant wait to enjoy d holidays..! i gotta fight nex sem anywayz if i screw up 1st sem to balance out my cgpa...

My taste in music has taken a turn into latino-brazillian jazz...bossanova! i ges it relaxes me...i even bought jamie cullum's new album and i like it. I'm even listening to d norah jones album i had for ages but nvr got d chance to listen to...I cant believe robbie came up with a new lame ass album...but no matter how lame ass d songs are, whenever he turns it into a video, i tend to enjoy 'em... o_O i even got bak 2 buyin techno gruvz 4 fun. recently i bought hypnotica by benassi d biz. hilarious...gud songs but they all sound d same..

ooh..i kinda miss tv right now.. must...go..watch..!

btw, tanx anonymous for d nice words of wisdom.