curses

[ihayat tune: king for a day ~ jamiroquai]

one word can say a lot.
curses...
1) i've ben cursing a lot for the past two weeks.
2) i've ben thinking of cursing a few people in my life to drown into the darkness of oblivion.
3) my fren thinks she's cursed. with wat...i cant say. [it's a secret..shh~]
4) i think chameleons [ sumpah2 = curse2 ] r adoreable.

ok..thts only four. not much. but it pretty much sums up how i've been feeling the past two weeks. issues and more issues. heh..at least for once in a very looong time i picked up a pencil n drew~! during math tho...so i didnt get the time to finish it due to the lecturer always walkin beside me n watchin me pretending to think. lol~

basically, i woke up feelin like shit today. pissed orf with the world...but mostly myself. i finally settled the things i needed to settle last nite. somehow i didnt feel any sense of satisfaction within me at all. I felt that i wasnt really given the freedom of speech. like my opinions didnt matter...tht's prolly why i need this stupid blogsite to let it all out. this morn i felt stewpid. stewpid for not makin the people shut up and lissen. all i did was what i usually do when i wanna get by life in peace...i shut up. and i lissen. and i let others run my life for me.

i dont know how much longer this weakness of mine is goin to last. now i juz gotta live thru d life i let happen. so much for the piece of motivation on paper tht i have on my notice board: "winners make life happen to them. losers let life happen" or maybe, i should juz lern to be grateful with whatever causes and effects that happen in my fabric of time and space.