and the survey seeeez ~ ~ ~

survey camp. thats where i've ben d past two weeks. i am now in the comforts of home with a sore throat, a painful neck, burnt skin and a bruised ego. evryday u are assigned new projects to complete. according to our lecturers, they can complete the tasks in half a day. (i salute thee). i ges itz possible...considering u dont hav to redo any of the tasks due to errors such as:
- collimation error
- parallax error
- random error
- standard error
- human error
- calculator error
n d number of errors juz goes on and on and on and on...........
REDO the most feared word at camp.

the place was nice tho...for two busy weeks tht is. cant imagine livin there wit nothin to do. the only happenin place there iz tan on mi. a kedai runcit which sells everythin including the topi sayur we all live for to keep ourselves kewl.

day 1 was hell for me. i got separated frm min n got stuck in a bus with d person i dislike the most n d bus broke down n we arrived etremely off schedule, which gives us vry little time to rest n get energized for next day's task.

we had to work with d fellas n one gal frm atma's civil engineerin students. strong people they are. so i ges my grup was pretty much a gud combi of brains n brawn. me, howie, aim, wafi n last but not least azizul. twas nice werkin wit y'all truout camp.

the food there aint tht bad but the flies n d psychotic cats r juz unbearable to a point where i vry much rather eat in the sun~! if i was claustrophobic, i'd prolly wudnt shower for 12 days. coz d shower room iz like a mini sauna room. it blacked out almost everytime we hav a comin presentation n dressin in the heat n the dark aint easy..plus i never rly had a gud nite sleep due to the unstable bunk bed n even tho it had a matress, i can feel every besi beneath my body. i'm juz glad to b sleepin on chiropractic again.

if i were to write abt the 12 dayz experience i had, this entry wud juz go on and on and on til doomsday...the cendol there is good. i'm sick of chicken breast. i had an experience me-rempit-ing. i made nu frenz. and most of all, survey camp revealed everyone's true colours. plus it brought me closer to my classmates.

fin.

shit shock horror~!

hee...went to a b'day dinner last nite. had a gr8 meal...then the girls decided to go to the fun fair in front of singgah selalu. i tot wat d hell..itz only 3rm per entry..so we went. then d gals wanted to go on one challenging ride. then there was one..it didnt look too scary. so we decided to ride tht one.

cant evn remember what i was called...all i remember iz tht it twirled in a humane manner to begin with..suddenly it spun in a manner where my body was almost perpendicular to the ground. all the laws of physics came to me..centripetal force, tension, gravitational pull, newton's 3 laws of physics...whoa..did the girls scream their heads orf!

what made tht ride intrestin is tht i was left with no partner n had to ride it alone. plus i think the people in charge 4got to lock up the safety gear on my ride. O.O shit shock horror! so, i was spinnin arnd n holdin on to dear life n god knows how many newtons of forces i could've experienced during impact if i ac'ly flew out of the friggin car. the ride evn made strange clanging sounds n images of final destination came thru my mind...

i got orf alive..but the dinner i had was screaming to spill outta my guts. i think d other gals felt the same way too. NEVER go on carnival rides on a FULL stomach. omg..i'm sooo never going on a low cost fun fair ride evr again...i went on the bumper cars afta tht tho..had fun crashin into me mates..hahah!

it was d last day at werk 2day...priceless were my experiences faxing hundreds of faxes (yeah, right) there's more to werk than faxing..made nu frenz in n out of the faculty. i'm home at last but i rly liked stayin away frm home 1ce in a while n hang wit frenz anytime i want. sigh~ tis a holidae to remember~

what curfew?

d last time i checked, students are allowed to stay out until midnite. when we were held back last nite by mr potato, the time was 9.30..2 1/2 hours b4 the damned curfew. so why hold us back? coz were 1st yr students drivin around? helloooo...technically, our 1st yr hav come to an end right when the sem ended. arse.

there goes all the babblin abt how we shudnt b drivin around...yada yada yada...how he can hand out summons to us for breakin d rulz...arse. wuteva. but when he sed d magic word "its one thing to be driving around when u shudnt be, but dressed up like that..? [points to me]" tht pissed me orf definitely n makes me wanna jab chopsticks into his eyeballs.

what's wrong with a polo neck,baggy bermuda shorts and my nikes?? izit gonner make me dumb? does it make me look slutty? watever the old man was thinkin, well...he's an arse. coz for 1 thing, there is no speific rule abt how we shud dress when we go outta campus. and who th hell wud know tht i'm a student representin my uni? no1's gonner go "Oh, look at her...she doesnt look like she comes from the best engineering uni in th country"

so what's d big deal ol man? o_O u shud rly juz learn to leave us alone and open up ur mind a little. i hate to be condescending,but mebbe itz d fact tht u nvr made it to uni tht caused u to fail to understand how dull life iz in uni when u spend a whole week there w/o seeing the outside world. arse.

Veronika Decide Morrer

Veronika Decides to Die (or in it's orig. language; Portugese, Veronika Decide Morrer) is one of the shortest book i've read in the past year...but as they say, size does not matter. this book is the most touching.

The buk begins with a simple paragraph which totally pulled me thru to the end: "On November 11, 1997, Veronika decided that the moment to kill herself had - at last! - arrived." it makes you wonder ~ ~

Written by the author of The Alchemist, Veronika Decides to Die is about 24 year old Veronika from Slovenia who has everything she could ever want in life, but is somehow unhappy...so she decides to commit suicide by taking an ovedose of sleeping pills. her plan backfired and she wakes up to finds herself in Villete, a mental hospital in Slovenia. She is told that she only has a week to live.

The buk tells us of the lives of the patients at villete and how they were affected by veronika's arrival to the hospital. even the mad thought that veronika was crazy. the effects on several characters are put into focus. Zedka, Mari and Eduard. They all have their own history where most of them were once happy and sucessful but were brought down by the pressure that life brings.

Veronika on the other hand, learnt many things that she had never let herself to feel while she was in the outside world. here in a world where everybody's insane, veronika does whatever the hell she wants to coz nobody gives a damn. she let out her anger through music, she fell in love, she began to apprecite life; thus feeling fear. fear of death. now that she knew life had a meaning; it was too late. so, she lived life to the fullest as though there were no tommorow. (in her case, there isn't)

what happens in the end? read it. ha~!

Satan's Night Out

Neooo..i haven't gotten into d dark ways...but if it meant bein lestat's girl vampire, anytime~! lol...aneeewayz, satan's night out is lestat's band. dunno if tht's wat d band's called in the queen of the damned movie but tht's wat itz called in the vampire lestat bewk.

i finally succeeded in finishing blood canticle. daym...as much as like anne rice's werk, blood canticle was pretty weak. a good book usually takes me 3 days to finish at the most. it took me 4 months to finish BC n i managed to read 3 books in between..i evn read da vinci code d 2nd tym round! o_O So here i am readin d vampire lestat. this 1's intrestin so far...coz lestat's not deranged n in luRv~ and obsessed at bein a saint.

speakin of bein in luRv~ i fell in luRv~ wif an adidas jacket i came across yesterday at cs...i'v been lewkin for the perfect jacket fer a while n this is it~! black, white n gorgeous! resonably priced too..if i had the cash...daym~ luRv bites!

my last paper iz finally over and i'm havin d tym of my life not feelin guilty abt not readin. but i am readin..juz not stuff tht educates me. ha~! i think i screwed up math...i never hated math..but this sem i do. wud be nice to repeat it tho...coz i cant afford another c+ on my record...must fix math. ah well..cest la vie~~

i hav no idea wat my planz for the holz r, but i dont want to hang arnd home. i'm not gonner ternak more lemaks as i alredy hav during study week. anywayz, i need cash to roll in..there's the adidas jacket, and the gallas bag and the flip flops and the wardrobe change...the list goes on and on and on...dont think i'll be able to all the stuffs in my list since the only job offer i got so far is an RA job where i'll b werkin wit a prof frm my fac. sounds like fun considerin i'll b doin it with my frenz...for a mere 500bux. still, money doesnt grow on trees. i wish they can..and grow in multiple of threes~! khee...

sigh~ mata duitan...thts wat my parents call me. d hell i care...madonna's right. itz a material world. and i'm happy d way things r. i'm not gonner b clad in an adidas jacket when i'm 50. i'll do it now. when i'm 50, i gotta be at least Assoc. Prof. Dr Iman Hayat...rich, sucessful, and livin alone with 20 cats and a gerbil called herman. lol~ me n my vivid imagination...

can of worms

just when i thought life was dull, a can of worms was opened and life suddenly turned frm grey to orange...for instance, i am well known to be shoe obsessed, but have never considered shoe designing as a future part time career. not evry1 wud consider that..but i'm into fashion design and have 3 sketch books full of designs..! and i cant quite pursue tht dream career of mine due to economical and religious reasons, so y not design shoes?

this whole ordeal iz fully inspired by gwen stefani...where 1ce upon a tym, i fell in love with a pair of L.A.M.B shoes tht i saw in an aussie mag. they were $300..if only the prices here were the same, i'd get it anytime! hell, my nike air chikaras cost me 300rm's. i'd grab a pair of L.A.M.B over nike's anytime~! i'd be the only person in this country wearin a pair of L.A.M.Bs!

then there's this deep dark secret which only i'll know abt when i read this again in the future...clue to myself: baguettes. oh how i miss them so! this is what rly made my day...

and now, there's a good chance i might get a job for the holidays, a car for the next semester, da vinci code's coming out soon, i hav great frenz all over and seeing how everything iz goin fine and dandy, why spoil it by screwing up the finalz? so from tommorw on, i'm gonner start focusing again. itz been a while since i focused. i did study, but not focus. n that i will do.

gary the snail

two weeks n countin down...i did the unimaginable ysterday...i bought a pink, i repeat; PINK polo tee~! seems like the appropriate thing to do after hearin jason mraz's [geek in d pink]..gawd..he's soo cute! not as cute as him though...lol~ (shyt..time is soo runnin out for me to werk on gettin his number..he'll b gone soon.)

so i did go to kL, n hung out with d people who truly appreciate my friendship. been havin frenship issues lately with old friends who seem like they needed me when they were down, but are too busy to see me when i travel a few hundred kilometers and bucks just to bloody c them. [they evn hv probz replyin my messages akin how they are] oh well, i still njoyed my trip tho...met up wit my online buddy who's uber kewl. n d best part is he's my best fren'z best fren. so itz all [masuk]~~ will be lukin forward to hangin wit the dudes again. mamakz!!

it was a pity tht i arrived mid val daym l8 dat day..i felt rly bad coz d dudez had other plans...i was held up at kl central and felt like i was tom hanks in d terminal. [gawd datz a funny thought...] didnt fall in love with a hot steward tho...or in my case a train ticket seller..i was rly pissed orf to fynd out tht kl central didnt hv any seats/benches/busuts for me to sit on..so i walked around aimlessly for 2 hours..when i did get to mv, i reminded meself tht i was on a budget...but tht didnt stop me frm gettin a new pair of nike's...[basically, i ws juz pissed i didnt get an ipod nano, so i went 4 d nex best thing,which is half d price of a nano...wish i wasnt such a brat...seriously.]

after d trip to kL, life is as hectic as ever...all the shytpiles of [ass]ignments to complete. plus the jam sessions on friday nites...i got d solo goin on when i play alone, but evrytime the band plays together, i either [1] mess up the solo [2] run out of tempo. i will get it right and i can. i wanna be a legendary..well, not tht far..erm i rly wanna b a great guitarist~ and all the hangout sessions...gawd, i'm soo undisciplined. the next month, itz all out bookz! i cant afford to mess up this semester.

itz been 3 weeks since i came home, and i'm at home now watchin sagwa d chinese siamese lebanese indonese cantonese taiwanese japanese cat. my sis wants to watch it, and since i'm online i have to surender d remote...not such a brat now am i? sigh~ home sweet home...

fever

thinkin kylie minogue's fever? think again...i'm so damn feverish i feel like burning and freezing and dropping dead and throwin up and punchin my nose into my skull all at the same time. u'd think i wanna mope around in bed..but neeeeooooooooo....i did a lotta things diz week...hahaha...

1. hung out at starbux most of the days of the weeks coz i KNOW i'll drop dead in my room. so cold..it partly contributed to my flu.
2. got hit in the head by a levelling umbrella d day i hav a math test that night. cudnt answer most questions due to d effin throbbin in me head.
3. met him. not bad...very shy dude.
4. itz been a while since i shopped,(and since i had money) so i effin shopped till i dropped!!! the things i bought~>
- a black padini polo tee
- a pair of threepointsix trousers
- a black and a green radioactive tshirts.
- a new overDbudget roxy bag...i told off d dude 4 sellin such a bottyful-bag-i-juz-had-to-have-it-evn-tho-i-was-on-a-budget...lol~ i laugh at my shopaholicness... o_O
5. thought i'd wanna do sum werk today, but i ended up in jusco tebrau (all hail jusco~!) with my parents n ended up with more icy starbux drinks and a new pair of goggles jeans and a reef flip flop...

AND i'm goin to kL diz weekend!! so i passed my atm card to my mum so that i wont spend anymore of my money until diz weekend. ha! clever me!!

my wonderful life

my fave phrase...ain't life pretty..? can be used anytime and everytime..despite my hectic life, i think i'm pretty relaxed and happy. thanx to a looooooong talk with an uber great friend,(tanx arif) i finaly set my mind straight and made a few goals tht i wanna achieve in life...(b4 i'm 30 i ges...)

1. Take a break from 'the usuals'..(arif would know what this is)
2. stop being such a low self esteemed loser. i know i'm better than what i think i am.
3. be a good muslim (fogive me for being ungrateful...)
4. study well n upgrade my grade this sem n make dr bapak proud now and alwayz~!
5. be able to play the songs i wanna play (like letters to cleo) n be in a girl rock band.
6. find an honest bloke who truly accepts me for me and can make me as happy as d happy tree friends..haha..
7. get my masters in maybe environmental civil engineering b4 i'm 25 (would love to do it at loughborough university..i miss loughborough!).
8. join greenpeace n adopt an endangered species.
9. travel the world...go to hong kong disneyland!
10. learn to cook.. ^_^ italian, chinese and lots and lots of sambal!!
11. and last but not least, open 2 boutiques. (i) neoterix designs (ii) dizzy bumblebee (for kids). I really wanna do this!!
that's my 1st 11...there will be more goals to come. but things should be taken one step at a time right? till then people...ta-ra~!

damn i need to piss!! like hell i do..itz freezin here at *bux and i've been here since 4..itz 9 now. i juz finished my soil mechanics assignment. Like hell i hate it. My eyes are burnin frm the horrible rays of the screen..bad screen! bad screen! *screen: whimpers*

waitin for my fren to pick me up now...like hell i need a car..and a piss. >_<>

these are the dayz~

dont you just love jamie cullum?

when are my busy weeks ever gonner end? more lab reports, more assignments, more tests, more work...i spent my whole saturday sleeping my ass off! thank god i woke up early today so i can do the works i planned to do yesterday.

there was a dinner for my college's cultural club. and i came fashionably late coz i went out for dinner wth my parents. plus i had sum errands to run for the faculty's annual dinner. he had to perform...an interesting performance too. all the more the reasons for me to admire him even more. its a sad thought tho..that getting to know him, juz sayin one simple sentence to him seems impossible..due to my excessive nerves whenever he's around..no nerves when i won a lucky draw at the dinner though~!

recently i've met some people who might just make one of my dreams come true. i'll let u figure which one of my million dreams that iz..i ges that's the only interesting thing datz happened to me so far...apart frm palyin with mushy soil in d soil lab. soil lab rly sucks. i get soil stuck in my nails..civil engineering juz gets messier and messier...

survey practicals's gettin me uber sunburnt, soil lab juz got my white giordano tshirt officially brown, i'm losin weight (the good part), but i'm goin out of my mind (the good part also..haha). my fat shedding scheme iz goin rly well. my stomach's gettin use to not havin dinner, thus i've lost quite a lot the past 2 weeks. i feel rly good abt my self these days and i hope i'll get to my ideal weight soon.

urgh...got lab report to finish before this afternoon. going out for lunch at pulai springs. i ges i'll juz reward myself this once in a full moon. pulai spring food rocks! too bad we couldnt hold d annual dinner there. cant wait for the dinner...for once i can sit down and enjoy the night insted of running around tryin to make things right. hey, that rhymes~!

Forgetful Lucy

Damn! i love diz song and the movie where it came from~!
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The Hukilau was the place
Where I first saw your face
We liked each other right away
But you didn't remember me the very next day
Forgetful Lucy
Has got a nice caboosey

I used to trick you into pulling your car over so we could chat
But my favorite time was when you beat the shit out of Ula with a bat
Then we drove up to see Dr. Keats
And found out why Doug always has to change his sheets
Forgetful Lucy
Cracked her head like Gary Busey

But I still love her so
And I'll never let her go
Even if while I'm singing this song
She's wishing I had Jocko the walrus' schlong
Forgetful Lucy
Her lips are so damn juicy

How about another first kiss..?
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So i watched 50 first dates fo the 15th time today...sometimes u juz wonder if true love such as the one in this movie really does exist...u'll nvr no until u experience it i guess. i love d songs in this movie. this is where i 1st discovered 311 and fell in love with d beach boys again.

another nightmare-ish busy week gone by...glad it's over, but another week is to begin in a few hours. but last week wasnt that all bad. i got to hang out with an old fren of mine who's finally safe in new zealand by now. (i hope) i'm so happy for him..we've known each other since primary skewl but lost contact after i left d country. i'm glad we managed to find each other last year. itz kinda ironic dat i left him behind to go overseas and now, he's doin d same.

i went to c another jam session lst week too n somehow i didnt quite enjoy it due to the same damn songs the guys play evrytime they jam..but itz a good way to release sum stress tho. i think they juz learned mcr's ghost of you. my frenz band iz playin dat song on d annual dinner. cant wait to c~! no matter how mainstrean mcr is these days, i still enjoy listenin to their album. i hope they dont spoil my love for them with a crappy 2nd album and make a comeback with a 3rd album and yada yada yada....

i went on an all day outin yesterday. i think we broke d shopaholics world record. we visited 4 malls in a day; skudai parade, perling mall,angsasna and city square. plus we hung out at singgah selalu and danga bay to watch some free concert. i jus wanted to see flop poppy sing and listen to JFK talk. jB aint dat big,so i ges itz possible...imagine goin to all d malls in existence in kL in 1 day.. @_@ i'd love dat...with rm10 000 spendin money..imagine all d shuz i can buy~~ ^_^ (no onder i'm zitty these days..too much daydreamin..)

d plan for the day was for the 3 of us;man min mas, to go out n look for gifts for the upcoming fka annual dinner. then my fren asked me to blanja him..being the kind person that i am (lol~) i sed ok. otw to his college we dropped by another fren'z college. and she joined us for lunch too. eventually, insted of sendin them bak to their colleges,they came along with us. itz a gud thing too coz i've been meanin to hang with my guy fren n cach up on each other's life. and d girls made him drive,which was rly funny coz he's uber tall and kancils r uber small...i felt sorry for diana who had to sit in d seat behind him d whole trip coz she was the shortest..lmao~!

by the end of the day, new friendship hav blossomed between my zul n d galz, i had a back ache and a pain in d ass by riding a kancil (definitely no kancil in my list of potential future cars..), we settled our gift issues, i got to c flop poppy perform n my roomie has sumthink to wear for d dinner...PLUS i might hav a new 'candidate' frm fke..woohoo! my fren sez he wears killer shuz...

sigh~ i am suddenly reminded of british fish fingers...i've been off food fer a while since i gained a lotta weight lately. been doin gewd..! i lost 5kg in a week by not eatin rice fer dinner, takin d stairs insted of the lift, am at d drivin range again, walkin to class if itz not too scorchin hot...damn weather, i'd b on playin golf at d course by now if i didnt care too much abt my skin...which is fallin apart since levellin started. imagine how zitty it wud be if i played golf~! i already hav weigth issues, i dont want no zit issues to worry abt too.

i have class at 9 2moro n i think i better hit d sack now...shite, i dont evn hv d time to go online during the week...i think my dad is ryt when he sed to cool it with joinin comitees in 1st yr. tanx drDad..

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Hah~! I'm actually writing diz in my room at ktho! damn i hate this place. i wish they'd just kick me out of here so that nex sem i can live in sum other college. ONLY if i already have a car by then...coz then i'd need to walk rly far to get to my faculty. hmm...mebbe i shud juz change rooms. a BIGGER room.

my current room is approximately..erm...put 3 single beds side by side and voila! u have d width of my room. d length, my 9 normal steps..try sharin dat space with another fren... o_O where's d human rights officer when u need em? evn aminals in zoos have bigger cages!! attica! attica! call me ungrateful if u want, but i think we thinking students deserve better.

yikes...the holidays are over and d next holz will be at the end of the semester..it seems like a long time frm now but i know dat i'll be in my second year here very soon. shite...my knowledge on soil mechanics is zilch and i have a test on the 9th. shit my knowledge on visual basics is zilch and i also have a test on the 9th. i am soo screwed. i wonder what i did during the holz................

i started to swing em golf clubs again at d drivin range and hey hey! i aint dat rusty. (after almost a yr of not swingin) evn tho i was in a fit blouse, jeans and high heels. (man, i feel like a woman~!) i couldn resist...d best part is when sum uncles sed i had a good swing for a beginner.

i watched a lot of tv...catchin up on my dad the rockstar..haha..the things u watch when u hav a 10 yr old sis..i'm on a fat shedding scheme where i stop it with d fatty food and uppin the exercise. so far so good...i hope i can finally dress-up insted of dressin people up soon. (designin things i wanna wear and being people's stylists). i wont stop designing tho...coz that's my passion.

ugh..i have a DE class tomorrow and how i wish i cud be my lecturer's stylist...*sigh* at least she has a PhD in something. all i have is a Permanent Head Damage...lol~

damn..i'm soo confused right now..about..its soo confusing, i cant desrcibe d situation. i just hate being confused...aargh!

Oops, i did it again!

i juz got bak frm kL today and 2moro is registration day at my college! damn~! i dont evn have clothes to wear to class...dont hav d tym to fulfill my laundry duties..

I enjoyed all-out tho while i was in kL...hung out with arif,tariq n their mate,alif. it was pretty fun evn tho i was d only gurl..i dint feel dat left out. plus i explored a little while i was there. i went to the pasar seni n was suprised to see all d cool crap they have ovr there~! i rly shud go there once i hav my own home to decorate.

i'm rly pissed orf wit my uni tho. i cant believe we have to pay more fees for d 2nd sem evn tho we already paid 2K in d 1st sem! and itz a lot too! and they're takin away my ptptn money frm my account!!! and ptptn wont give me more than d fees rate so i'd have zero in my account! damn!! and i had planz for dat money... :( so effin pissed...

but on d bright side of havin have less money, i'd have less urge to go shoppin while i'm spose to be completin sum kind of assignment or studyin. i need o focus more in sem 2 newayz if i wanna stay in 2nd upper...

ugh..so sleepy...y did d holidays have 2 end so soon????

vacation

i've finally taken a bold step and coloured my hair. on d box, it sez "crimson promise - soft reddish black". and hey~! my hair is now soft reddish black! not too obvious, but just a nice shade of reddish black hair. luv it. i wanted to do red high lights tho, but my parents are just against me. its wierd being 19 and not able to make MY own decisions abt highlighting MY own hair. but since i'm still livin at home (evn tho i'm in uni already) and my dad is one of the lecturers in my faculty, so i've decided to juz listen to em. [hell, if i was in a uni far far away, id have those highlights done in no time~!] Sigh~ i'm such a good kid...

d holidays are finally coming to an end...nex sem i hav to werk my ass off-er if i wanna maintain my 2nd class upper position. so, i had noodles of fun diz holidae. last week i went to sabah. i was rly lookin forward to c-in em org utans but my parents wanna hang aroun civilisation. so i got stuck in kota kinabalu insted. buuuuut it was an interesting stay i must say. not your everyday city.

i particularly like d market place there. really neat compared to other market places i've been to in malaysia. evn had d chance to c mount kinalbalu..well,almost...since it rained and it got rly foggy. i also visited ums and thought dat it's a really nice university compared to utm despite utm's reputation...PLUS i got to buy tons and tons of seashell necklaces and got a gr8 view of sabah frm d apartment i was staying at.

and i tot dat my vacation wud end there..with one week to spare b4 the nex semester begins...but i'm goin to kL diz wkend!! and i cant wait to meet up wif my frenz therre..aargh! i'm havin sooo much fun! but,the reality that i am an engineering student always hits me on d head to remind me of the sufferin i'll b goin thru once d holidays are over...diz time, no more messin. i can only pray to God to give me strenght to overcome the challenges that lie ahead.

[reminder to self~>i still have no one for Feb06...damn, i'm not evn tryin~~]

the gobloq of fire

i finally got to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire. it was definitely worth the 9 bux i paid. i even met up with diela who look great since the last time i saw her...she's gotta cousin who plays wicked guitar and goes to my uni. she might introduce me to him...i cud use a new guitar guru...haven't been strumming sane-ly for ages...with the examz and all...

apparently, more of my relatives think i'm obnoxious...but that's totally not my fault since d realtives who stayed over at my place were mostly guys. what did they expect? me to be prancing around like i do in front of my brother? he's my brother! of course us cousins have the same blood runnin thru our veins, but they gotta understand dat i'm a 19 year old girl and i dont talk to strange guys in their twenties~!

well, they're gone now..but they will be bak next year coz one of em's marrying sum 1 in jB...and i always go to their place every raya...same old, same old...i'll just keep myself busy online, reading or sleepin...haha!

the wedding planner

one of my cuzzins got engaged today, n my dad did d talkin..malay culture can be wierd...it fascinates me how things cn be really traditional in this modern world. but i'm learning to appreciate traditional things...

anywayz, d gurl looked really nice. she wore green which was a really nice theme for the engagement kenduri. i got to carry one of the gift tray for the girl. my mum keeps aking me how i'd like my engagement and my wedding to be like...mebbe coz tis a season for a lot of my cuzzins n frens getting hitched..and i'm nearing twenty...which is still too young!

hmm...lemme see...purple looks really nice on both guys and girl..green nice,n mebbe a really soft shade of orange.. [^_^] my fave colour! erm..ring..white gold, sapphire..tiffany's! a dinner for my frenz by d pool at pulai springs [like i always see when i go there], a party sumwhere cheaper for the family...haha~! yeah, right...mebbe in a zillion years.. [o_O]

weddings are nice..i'd like to plan one..not for myself, but for people. since studying engineering, i havent touched my sketch book at all. so much for standing up for being an expert at physics and being artistics at d same time...it dissapoints me to see people of science neglecting the beauty of art. i live my life among them and i've only met one or two people like that. i fell that just because we're busy learning maths and physics, doesn't mean that we shudnt have d tym to open up n see the beauty of art...sigh~

that's all folks~~

mami's kid

hmm...i finally got myself outta d house. went to a wedding. vry nice. 2nd wedding in dat house. it was funny seeing lecturer's frm my faculty everywhere since d father of d bride is a very good fren of my dad. who is also a lecturer. on d way home, my mum decided to take a detour n visit singgah slalu for a snack. yay~! we had a suprisingly good conversation today.

anywayz, i'm having a lousy time right now since my whole famly's watching a movie by a certain local director who i loathe. itz not dat i dont support d local market, but this director makes d lousiest movie abt d lousiest things...he just doesnt deserve it. and my parents are watching his movie right now. itz loud, stupid, and dumb. i wish he wud just go bankrupt. dat wud be d end of his stupidity.

still, today was a good day where i havent broken into a single fight with my parents at all, so i shud jus mind my own biznes n be a gud girl...haha! going out on monday...if i stay good, mebbe i'd get sum extra cash 4 being soo good!!

the best of me

My holiday is soo interesting~! i'm having soo much fun...if you can consider fun as waking up at midday, eating brunch, watch tv, read a book, watch sum more tv, go online, chat with sum frenz, check out my uni's forum, check out my frenster account, chat sum more, read sum more books, and maybe sleep sumtimes when i'm too tired of having fun, have trouble sleeping at night, when i do finally sleep, i wake up d next day at midday and ges wat? it's a new day of fun filled excitement.

i hav no idea what to do...going out means i need to fork out cash, which i dont have...but not goin out means my ass is either glued to the chair or sofa, where i'll be starin at either a tv or a computer screen. all this boredom is gib=ving me a headache..literally. i'm not moving around at all like a normal person my age shud be doin. at least a trip to the mall where i can walk around and sweat it out shopping wud do. but nooo...my relatives frm penang had to come around diz weekend and i'm stuck at home for at least the next four dayz coz my parents think its appropriate for me to stay at home with the guests. plus my mum wud need my help now and then while they're around. i wudnt even consider myself being with the guest right now since i'm upstairs typin this when they're downstairs....

i am such a vegetable...i shud find sumthing useful to do with my holidayz...i'm too rested. being too rested is bad...on monday, i'm gonner get myself outta d house, go watch harry potter which i nvr get a chance to coz itz alwayz full n walk around city square n exercise and not eat junk..! there, goal set. then on wedz [hopefully] i wanna go on a hangout session with yasmin. omigod!! i just realised dat i'm going to sabah in a fortnight...yippee!! [no, really..i meant it...]

surti dan tejo

surti dan tejo...an indonesian song by jamrud dat i got from one of my class mate. hilarious evn tho i dont understand half d song...hmm...it's been a while since i've written...prolly bcoz there's nothing to write about. but when i think about it, there's actually so much to write about.

1st of all, i need to let go of an event that i cant seem to 4get. it seems to haunt me everyday in everyway...during raya my mum found out that her uncle has been in icu for 3 weeks. so she insists that we go see him asap. and we did. the sight of my great uncle was terrible...apparently, during the bypass operation, he got a heart attack n most of his organs have failed to function properly. so he was practically living on a machine. i froze, i cudnt talk, i got out of the ward quickly. coz if i didnt, i'd prolly break down n cry...

he was one of my favourite great uncles. i knew him better than i knew d others...one of my relatives whom i'm closest to. as long as i've known him, he was perfectly healthy. 59 is not old. he died a week afta we visited him. it was a sad sight to see...d last funeral i went to was my grandmother's...when i was 9. so this one was scary for me somehow...a few hours later, his elder sister died. it was 2 funerals in 1 day at the same graveyard. the saddest part is, their mother's still alive n she's seen her kids go one by one over the years.

after d funeral, we rushed bak to jB coz i was in the middle of my finals...its wierd how i keep getting dreams abt my great uncle. evn now, almost a month later. not just dreams, but wierd dreams...iz it bcoz i cant handle d fact dat he's gone? i dunno...itz freaking me out...

anywayz, d finalz r finally over and i'm on my 4 week holidae. i'm worried about my results. aren't we all? itz different for me, coz not only my dad will noe my results, but all of his mates. which gets me really nervous. i'm afraid dat i might embarass him...stupid feeling. the boredom i'm going thru diz holidae iz makin d stupid feeling worse. there's nothing to do. next sem i'm gonner keep myself so bored dat i cant wait to enjoy d holidays..! i gotta fight nex sem anywayz if i screw up 1st sem to balance out my cgpa...

My taste in music has taken a turn into latino-brazillian jazz...bossanova! i ges it relaxes me...i even bought jamie cullum's new album and i like it. I'm even listening to d norah jones album i had for ages but nvr got d chance to listen to...I cant believe robbie came up with a new lame ass album...but no matter how lame ass d songs are, whenever he turns it into a video, i tend to enjoy 'em... o_O i even got bak 2 buyin techno gruvz 4 fun. recently i bought hypnotica by benassi d biz. hilarious...gud songs but they all sound d same..

ooh..i kinda miss tv right now.. must...go..watch..!

btw, tanx anonymous for d nice words of wisdom.