surti dan tejo

surti dan tejo...an indonesian song by jamrud dat i got from one of my class mate. hilarious evn tho i dont understand half d song...hmm...it's been a while since i've written...prolly bcoz there's nothing to write about. but when i think about it, there's actually so much to write about.

1st of all, i need to let go of an event that i cant seem to 4get. it seems to haunt me everyday in everyway...during raya my mum found out that her uncle has been in icu for 3 weeks. so she insists that we go see him asap. and we did. the sight of my great uncle was terrible...apparently, during the bypass operation, he got a heart attack n most of his organs have failed to function properly. so he was practically living on a machine. i froze, i cudnt talk, i got out of the ward quickly. coz if i didnt, i'd prolly break down n cry...

he was one of my favourite great uncles. i knew him better than i knew d others...one of my relatives whom i'm closest to. as long as i've known him, he was perfectly healthy. 59 is not old. he died a week afta we visited him. it was a sad sight to see...d last funeral i went to was my grandmother's...when i was 9. so this one was scary for me somehow...a few hours later, his elder sister died. it was 2 funerals in 1 day at the same graveyard. the saddest part is, their mother's still alive n she's seen her kids go one by one over the years.

after d funeral, we rushed bak to jB coz i was in the middle of my finals...its wierd how i keep getting dreams abt my great uncle. evn now, almost a month later. not just dreams, but wierd dreams...iz it bcoz i cant handle d fact dat he's gone? i dunno...itz freaking me out...

anywayz, d finalz r finally over and i'm on my 4 week holidae. i'm worried about my results. aren't we all? itz different for me, coz not only my dad will noe my results, but all of his mates. which gets me really nervous. i'm afraid dat i might embarass him...stupid feeling. the boredom i'm going thru diz holidae iz makin d stupid feeling worse. there's nothing to do. next sem i'm gonner keep myself so bored dat i cant wait to enjoy d holidays..! i gotta fight nex sem anywayz if i screw up 1st sem to balance out my cgpa...

My taste in music has taken a turn into latino-brazillian jazz...bossanova! i ges it relaxes me...i even bought jamie cullum's new album and i like it. I'm even listening to d norah jones album i had for ages but nvr got d chance to listen to...I cant believe robbie came up with a new lame ass album...but no matter how lame ass d songs are, whenever he turns it into a video, i tend to enjoy 'em... o_O i even got bak 2 buyin techno gruvz 4 fun. recently i bought hypnotica by benassi d biz. hilarious...gud songs but they all sound d same..

ooh..i kinda miss tv right now.. must...go..watch..!

btw, tanx anonymous for d nice words of wisdom.